My earliest memory was spending my hours in a lactation
room. I was so alone and bored that I tied my blanked on the edges of the bed
and start swinging on it. All my friends were sleeping together but I was alone
there and waiting for hours to pass… I didn’t know I will be alone as much I was
in my childhood, but my faith was the same for my teenage years.
I was never accepted to any group. The problem
is, they didn’t want me to involve in anything but also didn’t want me to leave.
I had to play the middle not only in the relationships with my friends but
almost with everyone, every time. I am so glad that life pushed me to live the
middle, because now I can get adapted to many situations easily. I am a person
everyone needs in their group. Everyone lives what they deserve.
My parents were working in a factory, they didn’t
have so much time to look after me. In this situation my aunt stepped in. She
lived with us 12 years and took care of me. I remember my first long travel was
with her to Didim in Turkey. I fall asleep in the pool, and they thought I was
dead. When my aunt found me, people didn’t believe it was my real aunt and they
waited me to wake up from my sleep. Also, I remember foreign people were the
ones who rescued me, it was the first time I met with them. There were people
who doesn’t speak my language. It was a big shock for me.
My next destination was Kusadasi in Turkey. This was my destiny travel because everything started in that place. First time swimming without any help. First time feeling as a person, start to feel the life. First time feeling the nature with mountains, lakes, and valleys. The most important first time was being in an ancient city for the first time. It was Ephesus Ancient city. I was amazed, paralyzed with the structures, history, and everything. I remember a tomb there, and whenever I go, I visit that tomb and remember my first time…
After this journey, I started to primary school
and didn’t travel out of the city for a travel for a long time. I spend my years
with computer games and friends. I have no regret, but I sometimes feel sad
when I turn and look back. I am who I am with my past, so it was a must for me
to live it. Why I feel sad is I could realize many things earlier, but I didn’t
want to. But at the end, here I am with many stories waiting for me to share.